Weight & Body Image
I find it interesting that as I gained weight it took a long time before I actually saw myself as fat. It seemed even though I was gaining weight I still had this perception of myself as as the slim athletic guy I was in high school. It was almost like the stages of grief first there is denial followed by a few other stages then unfortunately by acceptance. Once I accepted that I was fat then it was easy to do nothing about it and even make self deprecating jokes.
Once I started losing weight the experience was similar, I still saw myself as a big guy even as the pounds were dropping I still cracked jokes about not missing dinner and still saw myself in the mirror as fat. This is a perception I have just started to see the fallacy of and I am also learning how dangerous not changing this perception can be. I am finally starting to see myself with a different lens.. I don't want to see myself as a fat guy. I don't want to look at myself in the mirror and still focus on my gut... I think I can change this perception without going too far the other direction.
I wanted to take a moment to give some updates on sizes before and now. In the picture at the top of the facebook group I am wearing size 42 Jeans today I wore size 32 dress slacks to work. That is a 10" difference. At the same time I was wearing a size 20 dress shirt this week I wore a size 16 1/2 that is 3 1/2 inches. In the same picture I was wearing a xxl shirt. As I type this I am wearing an L. Just wanted to share those differences
When I first started the blog I talked about the importance of setting goals and having rewards for achieving them. I have been so focused on losing my last few pounds and knowing that accomplishing that was going to be a huge reward by itself, but I have been thinking, I want to reward myself at the 100 pound mark, I want to celebrate. Does anyone have any ideas of what i can do as a reward to myself. I would really love to lose my mind and go to the Chinese buffet and load up about 4 plates... but I will refrain... any other suggestions?